Beautiful scene

Every time I write now, I feel it is to complain.  I hope it is not coming across that way.  I don't want to complain, but I want to work through all my thoughts and feelings.  As I sat at the hospital this week while Madilyn was in surgery, I realized I miss my blogging.  I miss it because it really is quite therapeutic for me.  I have never realized before how writing down what I am thinking really helps me to process it, and in turn deal with it.  So, in the hospital, I think I typed a three page journal entry.  I thought about posting it, but it was more than anyone would want to hear.

As I drove to work the other day (I only work two days, so there a just a few of them where I am up and driving at this time), I saw this scene:

You can't see it that well, because I did take it from my phone while I was driving (dangerous, I know, sorry).  My favorite part of our always-blue sky in Arizona is seeing the sun rays through the clouds.  First of all, we don't always have a ton of clouds.  Second of all, I really do feel like it is heaven shining down on us.  I don't know if I just like thinking about my little boy and knowing there are many times he is watching down on me, or if scenes like this are just for me!  Wouldn't that be great?  Thanks Heavenly Father for this beautiful scene.  I needed it.  I needed it to lift me and to help me feel loved.  I need to know that through the hard times, the times I can't stop crying and even the good times that He is there.  My little boy is with Him and in a good place.

I really did think of heaven the morning I took the picture.  It was a good day.