Lingering Grief

My friend sent me this link this morning.  Interesting how close she is to the spirit.  Every time she sends me something, it is exactly what I needed.  This link just confirmed how I have been feeling.  After two years of not having Ethan, it's hard to describe how people act when my grief comes.  I know those close by me get it, but others who have since learned that it was TWO years ago, seem to wonder why I grieve.  Or maybe it's just that they don't know how to react.  But, I love how this story tells of those that remembered her four years later.

http://adailyscoop.blogspot.com/2012/09/lingering-grief-lasting-support.html?m=1

A friend of mine text me the other night just to ask how I was.  I cried.  I cried because she knew this time of year is tough for me and all she wanted to know was how I was doing.  I appreciated that text more than she knows. She remembers even a couple of years later. I know that I cry almost daily right now because it is a very emotional time, but most don't know that.  I love the crying because after I always feel better, but it creeps up on my a lot more right now.  I wish I didn't have this to deal with, but at the same time, it has made me better.

Another emotional tug the other day was the following picture.  Parker must have written this when he was 5 or so (according to the handwriting).  I wasn't sad to see the bunk beds go because I was giving them to my sister, but these are the bed Parker and Ethan shared since Ethan could sleep in a bed.  Parker obviously claimed his.  I love it.  It was just hard to remember those times.  The times when I had both boys together!  They were so cute.  They fought, but that's what brothers do.  But, they were brothers and they had each other.  Those memories seem to be fading and I hate it.....

If you can't see it, it says "Parker's bed."