Time

I can't believe my addiction to posting has actually let me miss a day.  I realized as I was going through things in our garage (for about the 80th time), I have always loved to write down my thoughts.  I think I came across ten journals of my own.  There are certainly parts of my life a spelled out more than others.  I also came to the realization that once I had kids, the writing slowed greatly!  I used to love to write about every d day as a single, working girl.  After I was married and had kids it became maybe once a month, if I was lucky.  Interesting how life can pass you by without realizing it.

Since losing Ethan, TIME has become even more precious.  I say this because we never realized how fast it goes by.  Seven years was fast!  It feels like we just had Ethan yesterday, and now his life is already over.  We never know how long someone's life is.  We always wish we would've done something differently and I wish I would have spent more TIME getting to know Ethan. I spent a lot of time, but it would never be enough.

I like to explain to people now to "treat everyone like they have just lost a child."  I express it that way because I have never felt so loved in my life as I have this past year.  I love it.  My goal is now to treat everyone how I have been treated.  I have treated my children differently because they have just lost a brother (this can be tricky because I had to learn to keep disciplining too).  I think it will be  kinder world around me now.