Snuggled During Dinner

We had a family reunion this past weekend.  I did post a couple of pictures so far.  I have a ton of pictures, but I am still very technologically challenged, so the pictures will be posted after we get home.  

I knew before I left that I was missing Ethan not being on this trip, but it became more apparent as the trip continued.  I had one of the most emotional times I have had in a while.

My cousins put together a video for the reunion and it had TWO 'new' pictures of Ethan (I need to get those so I can post them--soo cute).  With that and having an obvious gap in my family during this reunion it made for an emotional weekend.  I cried a lot.  I cried myself to sleep a couple of times. I sometimes feel I can't feel the pain anymore, so I welcomed it.  

Wow, we really do miss our Ethan, but have really enjoyed this time with our children.  We do have the best kids in the world and are so grateful for them.

Madilyn snuggled with me during our dinner last night and said pointing to the ceiling, "I am sad.  I am just thinking of Ethan.  I really wish he could be here with us and we could see him."  

I told her I think that every day.  She knows he is with us a lot, but we just can't see him. This was true the whole weekend.  We know his little spirit was with us.