My life is good. I know this. I know I am very blessed to have a beautiful family, an awesome home, and wonderful friends. I know it.
However, some days I just want to be mad. I am struggling lately with just being mad. I tear up a lot still, but for the most part, the feeling of being mad is one I have to try to overcome. If I can keep myself from being mad about Ethan, then I am having a good day. This isn't necessarily today, but has been the last while. I know the grief process is in stages and these stages will keep coming. I guess right now I am angry again. Its definitely the hardest emotion for me to endure because I can't seem to keep myself happy through it. I also know its normal.
I don't want to ask "why?" But, on the other hand, I do want to ask it.
Oh the rollercoaster....
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